Hold no regret

One of the worst feelings in life is regret. It drags you back into nothingness. It pushes you into your unalterable past and forces your emotions to fiddle with things done and dusted. The world of regret is full of illusions eating up your today and holding you from moving on. The more emotions you feed to regret, the more it devours your present. If you spend your today regretting your yesterday, you will surely spend your tomorrow regretting your today.

 Yet, so many of us spend most of our lives regretting about the decisions we have taken in the past. I haven’t met one person who meant it when he said “I regret nothing.” I myself regret many things in life. I may be writing now that regret is bad, but I still hold on to my regrets. They search for me creepily when I am alone. They find their way through my tears and gnaw at my heart. My regrets make my soul scream at me for not having let things happen the way they should have. That is the worst thing; your soul screaming at you. I consider the soul as the calmest part of a living being. It screaming is a grave sin you commit. Because a screaming soul is no longer divine. It becomes nothing but a slave of human emotions. Emotions are hard to tame. Our soul, I believe, is the only being detached from the world. But as a slave of human emotions, it is the worst animal to tame.  

We all struggle to tame this animal. We try hard to place our soul back into the world of detachment. We have all had those days when our outside is calm but the inside is at war with itself. People can seldom see through our calm outside. For most of them, how we appear on the outside is the only thing that matters, because perhaps how they see us is how they wanted us to be. Perhaps they themselves are reflections of how someone else wanted them to be. These people will never ask you what you want, or how you feel. They will always look at you from a point of view that doesn't belong to them. They will love you when you accept their perception about yourself, and will go to any extent to emotionally scar you the moment you disapprove of their beliefs.  

It is nothing less than a miracle to find someone who can see through your calm outside. These are people who gather all the moments abandoned by you and peep into your soul.  They know what your heart abandoned is what it longs for the most. They can hear your inner screams, and can see your soul ripping apart as it fights with itself.

If you have such a someone in your life, let their eyes travel deep down inside you. Let those eyes lighten the darkest corners of your soul. These eyes do not see you as reflections of someone else, but will touch your soul and gently place it back to where it belongs. These eyes will always carry a smile that has power to heal your scars. These eyes do not have borrowed perceptions, and belong to people who will never regret you. You will always find a little of yourself in them.

If you find such a someone, never let anything make you regret it, because you seldom meet yourself in someone else.